I think people often have a difficult time understanding me. I am not conventional perhaps, or others do not see the world as brilliantly as I do and they are jealous. Or it could be the opposite, perhaps I am conventional and boring and people pity my unfaltering optimism for the world. Whatever the case, I do not pretend to be someone I am not. I can't say this is a good or bad thing but there it is. I hardly understand myself, to be honest, and maybe that not knowing propelled me to study psychology, so instead of understanding others better it was an attempt to understand myself.
I told someone today that people never change, I was wrong, what I should have said is people rarely change. I say rarely because there are occasions where people do change, but they have to want to change, and for the right reasons. I should know, I changed. And my reasons for changing are possibly some of the best there are, to be a better person, a happier person, someone who lives in the moment and laughs more than cries. I believe I am all these things now, and I'm not going to pretend like it was easy because it wasn't.
Regardless of whether I've changed for not, I, like everyone, still have faults. I am perhaps too forgiving, my optimism perhaps doesn't allow me to clearly see reality, and I am my most severest critic. Some may say that being forgiving is something to be admired, others may think me a fool. Some may think that in a dark world optimism is a necessity, and again others may think me a fool. I think that I am my own largest cheering section and harshest judge.
I don't pretend to make sense, I don't pretend to know all the answers, I don't even pretend to know why I do all the things I do, but I know one thing, I have potential. I really am my largest cheering section, I really do feel that I can accomplish anything I set my mind to. Why you ask? What gives me that impression? Well for one I have never disappointed myself, this could steam from either not having truly failed anything OR from being able to forgive myself for my past transgressions. Either way in my eyes I'm winning. So what would you do if you knew you could never fail? Instead of wishing "if only" do it, because like me, you can never fail. You have limitless potential. The world is truly your oyster, do what you will with it, seize the day!
I told someone today that people never change, I was wrong, what I should have said is people rarely change. I say rarely because there are occasions where people do change, but they have to want to change, and for the right reasons. I should know, I changed. And my reasons for changing are possibly some of the best there are, to be a better person, a happier person, someone who lives in the moment and laughs more than cries. I believe I am all these things now, and I'm not going to pretend like it was easy because it wasn't.
Regardless of whether I've changed for not, I, like everyone, still have faults. I am perhaps too forgiving, my optimism perhaps doesn't allow me to clearly see reality, and I am my most severest critic. Some may say that being forgiving is something to be admired, others may think me a fool. Some may think that in a dark world optimism is a necessity, and again others may think me a fool. I think that I am my own largest cheering section and harshest judge.
I don't pretend to make sense, I don't pretend to know all the answers, I don't even pretend to know why I do all the things I do, but I know one thing, I have potential. I really am my largest cheering section, I really do feel that I can accomplish anything I set my mind to. Why you ask? What gives me that impression? Well for one I have never disappointed myself, this could steam from either not having truly failed anything OR from being able to forgive myself for my past transgressions. Either way in my eyes I'm winning. So what would you do if you knew you could never fail? Instead of wishing "if only" do it, because like me, you can never fail. You have limitless potential. The world is truly your oyster, do what you will with it, seize the day!
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