An affair to remember

I feel anxious, mischievous, excited, fortunate, confused, and terrified all about the same situation. It's quite exhausting actually! And once again I find myself struggling between what I want to do, what I should do, and what is easiest to do. The funny thing is that there is a possibility that I may not find myself in that situation which is weighing heavy on my conscious. Hmm what to do, what to do?